the worst mouth sore ever

this really &*%^$#@*&^ hurts..

its been 4 days i think..i'm enduring the pain from this mouth sore..i can't eat well..i can't brush my teeth well..i can't focus well..i'm not well..

I don’t know where it came from..i don’t know why..why me..and why did it place itself where it could hurt the most..this is the worst mouth sore ever..in my life..

I consulted mouth-sores.com..he said:

“Mouth sores are common in both adults and children, and affect both men and women. The term 'mouth sore' refers a number of different lesions of the mouth caused by viruses, bacteria, fungi and irritation. Common bacterial and viral mouth sores include canker sores and cold sores, where other sores are caused by loose or ill-fitting dentures, braces and retainers. Some mouth sores can also be caused by an underlying disease or disorder. It is always recommended to visit your dentist for a prognosis if you are prone to mouth sores.

Mouth sores are almost always painful, and regular activities such as eating and talking usually exacerbate the symptoms. Many people with various mouth sores have trouble eating or swallowing. There are, however, many ways to treat mouth sores. In many cases, mouth sores can be treated with natural over the counter ointments and medications. “

I think mine is a canker sore..consulting again mouth-sores.com..

“Canker Sores - are ulcers of the mouth, usually found on the cheeks, gums or under the lips. Many canker sores are 'roundish' in shape - a whitish film surrounded by a red outline - and are relatively painful depending on size and where they are located. Caused by a virus, Canker sores are not contagious, however once someone has a canker sore they have a greater chance of a recurring canker sore. Canker sores are caused by many factors or triggers: fatigue and stress can increase the chance of a recurring canker sore outbreak. Cuts to inside of the mouth from teeth, braces or dentures can greatly increase the chances of a canker sore outbreak. Lowered immune system strength or poor diet can also contribute to the recurrence of canker sores. Some doctors have found that digestive or intestinal disorders such as ulcerative colitis are linked to canker sores. Although doctors and scientists still are not certain exactly what causes the canker sore, there is significant evidence of viral or bacterial infections of the mouth contributing to the outbreak of canker sores.”

I guess I have to settle for common household medicine to cure this one..so i have to apply alum powder or iodized salt on the spot..it’s painful..like torture..but its better that way to make it go sooner not later..sigh..

hot..fun..yum..

is it hot or is it hot..
summer in the philippines..
hot..hot..hot..
early morning sun..
sultry all day..
even the nights..
hot..hot..hot..

i wanna go to the beach..
mabini..galera..boracay..
pagudpud..subic..la union..
camnorte..camsur..siargao..
palawan..tambaron..hundred islands..
cool clean water..waves..
escape from the urban jungle heat..

i wanna eat halo-halo..
fruit salad..
buko-pandan..
strawberry milkshake..
zagu..fruitshake..
ice cream..
ice scramble..
ice drop..
ice candy..
ice water..
anything cold..
drop down the temperature..
quench my thirst..
rehydrate..

summer in the philippines..
hot..hot..hot..
beaches in the philipppines..
fun..fun..fun..
halo-halo in the philippines..
yum..yum..yum..

baby boy or baby girl

everytime i tell someone that my wife is pregnant..two questions are frequently asked..is it a boy or a girl..and when i answer that it is still not determined..the next question would be..which do you prefer, a boy or a girl..and then i'll answer back..i don't mind about the gender..what's important is that our baby is normal and healthy all throughout his growth..

then i wonder..if i would be given the chance to really pick among the two..which would i choose..ooohhh..i really can't categorically answer..

i happen to google a site (netmums.com)where myths and old wives tales are presented to determine the sex of an unborn baby if decided not to reveal this thru the ultrasound..
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Cravings
If pregnancy has left us desperate for salty crisps and ham sarnies, we're said to be carrying a boy. However, if we've developed a sudden sweet tooth and can't get enough of chocolate and lollies, we're apparently expecting a girl! Unsurprisingly, health professionals have dismissed cravings as having no relevance to gender and are simply the body's response to changing nutritional requirements during pregnancy. (my wife is always going for sour foods)

High or low? Front or back?
The way that we carry a baby is one the most popular methods of predicting the sex and you're likely to encounter plenty of people who'll give an accurate gender diagnosis based on the position of your bump. It's generally believed that if we're low and out front, it's a boy but if the bump is high and we're visibly pregnant from the back, we've got a girl. Again, scientists have put a damper on this belief, citing that the way we carry is a result of muscle tone and the position the baby has adapted in the uterus. Spoilsports! (i'll wait for my wife's bump..hmmm)

Heartbeats
Next time you listen to your baby's heartbeat, make a note of the speed. According to old folklore, if it's under 140 beats per minute, it's a boy, anything above that? Definitely a girl! Your midwife may humour you if you choose to believe this one, but will probably feel it her duty to inform you that heart rates have no relevance until labour and birth when a girl's will generally beat faster than a boy's. (i think our baby's heartbeat is 154 on first ultrasound)

Pregnancy sickness
If we suffer from nausea and general sickness during the first twelve weeks, we're supposedly carrying a girl. But if that nasty sicky feeling strikes a little later, it's most definitely a boy. People also believe that the timing of our sickness is a clear indication of our baby's sex with boys making us sick in the morning and girls in the evening. Several studies have been carried out to find a link between sickness and gender, with no conclusive results. Hence, it's probably best to wait till baby arrives before splashing the nursery walls in pink or blue! (my wife is feeling the sickness both in the morning and the afternoon..how about that..)

Foetal Activity
Another fun belief is to monitor our baby's activity in the womb. If we have a particularly energetic tot, it's most likely to be a boy whereas a more chilled foetus indicates a girl. As good as this theory is, it's generally perceived that expectant mums detect their babies movements depending on their own daily activity. For example, a mum who spends the day at home with her feet up is likely to feel a lot more kicking and rolling around than one who's rushing about all day. (kicking ands rolling..our baby do that during our last ultrasound)

Your looks
It's not only our body shapes that change during pregnancy but our face and looks too. Some believe this is an indication of gender, with boys promoting shiny hair and rosy skin and girls causing dull hair and the odd pimple or two. However, experts would insist that outbreaks are merely a result of the various hormonal changes our bodies are undergoing and that women who usually suffer from spots are likely to have further outbreaks in pregnancy, irrelevant of their baby's sex. (the belief is the other way around in the philippines)


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Other gender prediction tales and beliefs
There are hundreds of other fun ways to predict the sex of your baby, originating from all over the globe. Some of the most common are:

The ring trick: Tie your ring to a piece of string and hold it gently over your bump. If it swings from side to side, you're having a boy but if it adapts a circular motion, it's a girl.

Your breasts: If your right breast looks bigger than the left, it's a boy - vice verse, it's a girl. If they're both the same size, then the myth is either complete nonsense or you're having one of each!

Chinese gender calculator: This is one of the most popular gender prediction tests and many women find it scarily accurate. It works by calculating your age at conception with the number of the month you conceived in. If the resulting number is odd, you can expect a boy, if the number is even - it's a girl.

Early gender tests: There are new home testing kits that claim to accurately predict your baby's gender by analysing the fetal DNA in the mother's bloodstream. The mother takes a simple blood test and the results are sent off for analysis before being posted online within a few days.

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to those mothers reading this..which method do yout think is the most accurate..hmmmm..

growing and kicking

i just am facinated with how our baby behaved last time the doctor showed us again his ultrasound image..he's already kicking inside my wife's womb..doing the summersault and turning like an actor in an underwater scene..very active he is..and my wife can't believe it because she still can't feel the kick..but the doctor said we should take note of his first kick during the 15th to 16th week period..i bet he'll never to fail to give us an early milestone..

at this picture..our baby is kind of stretched..showing his legs straight(left side)..he has grown three times his size since our last check-up..

go go go baby..

minsan may isang puta

(isang pagrerepaso sa isang pelikula at lathalain)

ang tindi ng title noh..ang maikling lathalain na matutunghayan ay akda ni Mike Portez-Borromeo..ngayon ko lang talaga nabasa ng buo ito pero matagal na itong na-email sa akin ng asawa ko..nakakahanga ang istilong ginamit ng may-akda..mahusay..

at maslalo ko ito na-appreciate nung mapanood ko sa up ang sine na hango sa akdang ito..sana mapanood nyu din yung "ganap na babae"..three movies-in-one ito at isang parte nito ang paglalahad ng lathalain na ito..

kahit medyo morbid yung ibang bahagi ng pelikula..tinalakay nito ang iba't ibang aspeto ng babae sa lipunan..merong nakakatuwa..merong nakakatawa..merong sobrang morbid talaga..merong simple lang..merong marahas..merong masakit sa kalooban..meron talagang emosyon..mararamdaman ng manonood..
ewan ko lang kung napansin nila ang mga simbolismo na ginamit ng mga director..masmarami pa itong kahulugan kung lalaliman pa ang paglilimi..at pamatay ang ending..panalo..standing ovation ang mga nanood..hindi ko rin inasahan na magugustuhan ko ang pelikula..kailangan din open-minded..baka kasi salungat ito sa prinsipyo at paniniwala ng iba..

sulit ang ticket..sana makanood ulit ako ng sine na ka-level nito..5 stars para sa pelikulang ito..at 5 stars din sa sumulat ng "minsan.."..

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Minsan May Isang Puta

Tingin ng mga bobong kapitbahay ko puta daw ako. Nagpapagamit, binabayaran. Sabi nila ako daw ang pinakamaganda at pinakasikat sa aming lugar noon. Ang bango-bango ko daw, sariwa at makinis. Di ko nga alam kung sumpa ito, dahil dito naletse ang kinabukasan ko.

Tara makinig ka muna sa kwento ko, yosi muna tayo. Alam mo, maraming lumapit sa akin, nagkagusto, naakit. Ang hirap pag lahat sa iyo virgin eh. Tinanggap ko naman silang tao, bakit kaya nila ako ginago? Masakit alalahanin, iniisip ko na lang na kase di sila taga rito, siguro talagang ganoon. Tatlong malilibog na foreigners ang namyesta sa katawan ko, na-rape ako.

Sa tatlong beses akong nagahasa, ang pinakahuli ang di ko makaka-limutan. Parang maski di ko ginusto ang mga nangyari, hinahanap-hanap ko siya. Tinulungan nya kasi akong makalimutan yung mga sadistang Hapon at Coño.

Kase, ibang-iba ang hagod niya. Umiikot ang mundo ko sa tuwing ginagamit niya ako. Ibang klase siya mag-sorry, lalo pa at kinupkop niya ako at ang mga naging anak ko.

Parating ang dami naming regalo - may chocolates, yosi, ano ka! May datung pa! Nakakabaliw siya, alam kong ginagamit nya lang ako pero pagamit naman ako nang pagamit.

Sa kanya namin natutunan mag-inggles, di lang magsulat ha! Magbasa pa!
Hanggang noon, sa tuwing mabigat ang problema ko, siya ang tinatak-buhan ko. Yun nga lang, lahat ng ba may kapalit. Nung kinasama ko siya, guminhawa buhay namin. Sosyal na sosyal kami. Ewan ko nga ba, akala ko napapamahal na ako sa kanya. Akala ko tuloy-tuloy na kaliahan namin, yun pala unti-unti niya akong pinapatay. Putang Ina! Sa dami ng lason na sinaksak niya sa katawan ko, muntik na akong malaspag. Ang daming nagsabi na ang tanga tanga ko. Patalsikin ko na daw. Sa tulong ng mga anak ko, napalayas ko ang animal pero ang hirap magsimula. Masyado na kaming nasanay sa sarap ng buhay na naranasan namin sa kanya. Lubog na lubog pa kami sa utang, kulang ata pati kaluluwa namin para ibayad sa mga inutang namin.

Sinikap naming lahat maging maganda ang buhay namin. Ayun, mga nasa Japan, Hong Kong, Saudi ang mga anak ko. Yung iba nag-US, Europe. Yung iba ayaw umalis sa akin. Halos lahat, wala naman silbi, masaya daw sa piling ko, maski amoy usok ako.
Sa dami ng mga anak ko na nagsisikap na tulungan ang kalaan namin, siya din ang dami ng mga anak ko na namamantala sa kabuhayan at kayamana na itinatabi ko para sa punyetang kinabukasan naming lahat. Dumating ang panahon na di na kami halos makaahon sa hirap ng buhay. Napakahirap dahil nasanay na kami sa ginhawa at sarap.

Ang di ko inaakala ay mismong mga anak ko, ang tuluyang sisira sa akin. Napakasakit tanggapin na malinlang.Akala ko ay makakakita ako ng magiging kasama sa buhay sa mga ahas na ipinakilala ng mga anak ko Hindi pala. Ang tanga ko talaga. Binugaw ako ng sarili kong mga anak kapalit ng kwarta at pansamantalang ginhawa na nais nilang matamasa.

Wala na akong nagawa dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa aking mga anak. Wala akong ibang yaman kundi ganda ko. Pinagamit ko na lang ng pinagamit ang sarili ko, basta maginhawa lang ang mga anak ko.

Usap-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko. May nanghihinayang, namumuhi at naaawa. Puta na kase ang isang magandang tulad ko.

Alam mo, gusto ko na sanang tumigil sa pagpuputa kaso ang laki talaga ng letseng utang ko eh. Palaki pa ng palaki. Kulang na kulang. Paano na lang ang mga anak ko naiwan sa aking punyetang puder? Baka di na ako balikan o bisitahin ng mga nag-abroad kong mga anak. Hindi na importante kung laspagin man ang ganda ko, madama ko lang ang pagmamahal ng mga anak ko. Malaman nila na gagawin ko ang lahat para sa kanila.

Sa tuwing titingin ako sa salamin, alam ko maganda pa rin ako. Meron pa din ang bilib sa akin. Napapag usapan pa din. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ko sa salamin, nakikita ko ang mga anak ko. Tutulo na lang ang mga luha ko ng di ko namamalayan. Ang gagaling nga ng mga anak ko, namamayagpag kahit saan sila pumunta. Mahusay sa kahit anong gawin. Tama man o mali. Proud ako sa kanila. Kaso sila, kabaligtaran ang nararamdaman para sa akin.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko, iilan lang ang may malasakit sa akin. May malasakit man, nahihilaw. Ni di nga ako kiniki-lalang ina. Halos lahat sila galit sa isa't isa. Walang gusto magtulungan, naghihilahan pa. Ang dami ko ng pasakit na tiniis pero walang sasakit pa nung sarili kong mga anak ang nagbugaw sa akin. Kinapital ang laspag na ganda ko.Masyado silang nasanay sa sarap ng buhay. Minsan sa pagtingin ko sa salamin, ni hindi ko na nga kilala sarili ko.

Dadating na naman ang pasko, sana maalala naman ako ng mga anak ko. Isang buwan pa, magbabagong taon na. Natatakot ako sa taong darating. Non pa lang usap usapan na ang susunod na pagbubugaw ng ilan sa mga anak ko. Sana may magtanggol naman sa akin, ipaglaban naman nila ako.

Gusto kong isigaw:
"INA NINYO AKO! MAHALIN NYO NAMAN AKO!"

Sige, dumadrama na ako. Masisira na ang make up ko nito eh. Salamat ha, pinakinggan mo ako. Ay sorry, di ko nasabi pangalan ko.

Pilipinas nga pala.
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“Minsan may Isang Puta” was originally published in April 30, 2004 @ Peyups.com