stay while they fly away

a colleague from transco called while i’m on duty at the substation telling me that there was an urgent hiring of electrical engineers and linemen for new zealand and the promised compensation is really beyond our rates here in the philippines..good opportunity indeed..

one thing for sure..i still am not sure, at this moment, considering working abroad..

not 100%, i guess..yeah the money is good..new zealand ice cream is a must try..living a new life is a dream..escaping from many philippine dilemma will be very relieving..new zealand is new zealand..

but new zealand is not philippines..definitely my comfort zone..absolutely home sweet home..the people i love..the foods i crave..the places i go..the festivities i celebrate..the life i lived..but uncertain it is..here our life in the philippines..

i wish this time of thinking to fly abroad will not come my way..but it’s inevitable especially for young professionals because one day could be not a brighter day..i come to think of it..i was mislead..the predicament is like something that i can’t determine what is right or wrong..what is better or worse..what is priority and what is not..the difference is not even always a contrast..

i definitely won’t settle for the present status quo..the default is way still far from my childhood goals..what can i say..contentment has not found me yet but i wanna be there..i don’t know if it will require a change of venue..i guess i still am not ready..

it’s a big deal..that’s why i’m writing about it..we all want a brighter future..i am hurting because that brighter future would be quite impossible to establish here..but that itsy bitsy teeny weeny probability of reaching it here keeps me going..

i would like to stay while they fly away..but if destiny still permits me to leave the life i dreamt..let it be..

acceptance is the bottom line of happiness..